Written & Mailed: August 12th, 2003

Returned: August 18th, 2003

Dear Austin & Dillon,

Hi, how are you doing? Me, Im doing just fine. I hope every thing is going good for you. I just wanted to write you a few lines to let you know I was thinking about you as I always do. I know before to long you will be able to get access to these letters and I hope and pray that you Austin will be able to let Dillon know that I still love both of you very much. I know that you may here that I dont love you and that I gave you up but that is a lie. One day you will be able to look back and ask questions and why would a mother want to keep her sons from knowing there real father? I think you will be able to find a lot of the answers right here on this web site. I want you to know that I sent your mother a ledger with my income and explained to her that I could not pay maximum child support. So if it wasnt because of money then why cant we talk on the phone or write each other letters. I told her at the time I could only pay $200.00 dollars a month. And it is a shame because I only needed some time to get my life in order before I could give you the love that you so much deserved from me. I pray that you will not grow distant from me before the day comes when we get to be together again. Im sure she tells you that it is in your best interest that we dont communicate or that things are going good for you and that may be true but who says you cant be happy with your step father and still love your real dad. Please understand that Im not writing these letters to run anyone down or to make things worse, but the truth has to be known. Im going to close for now so I will write you again soon. Take care and hug and kiss one another for me. Just remember I DO LOVE YOU!!!!

Love always, your dad

Robert Brignac  xoxoxoxoxo

Dear Austin & Dillon,

Hi, how are you both doing? Me Im doing okay under the circumstances but things could always be a little better. For example having you two boys here in my arms right now, that would be awesome. I cant tell you boys how many nights Ive cried myself to sleep thinking about you. I dont think there is a day goes by that I dont think about you. It is almost Halloween again and I bet yall are excited about going trick or treating. Just be very careful because its not as safe as it once was. I can remember one Halloween when I dressed you Austin as a zombie and Dillon you were a orange M&M. I just wonder what you will be this year. What ever it is Im sure you will look great and you will get plenty of candy. Boys I really do hope and pray that when you do get my phone number and or address you will please call or write me to let me know how you are doing. I dont want to always mention it in my letters but I pray that you boys will have a soft heart and forgive me for the bad times that I have put you through. I do understand what it is like for things to be out of place in your life. Just dont be like me and try to do it all by yourself. Dont be afraid to ask for help and dont keep things held inside. Well its getting late now so I guess Ill close so I can get this put out on the web. You both please hug and kiss each other for me and I hope to see you soon.

Love always your dad

Robert Brignac xoxoxoxoxo

Dear Austin & Dillon,

How are you doing? Me, Im doing as well as expected. I have been thinking a lot about you two boys and I miss you very much. Some times things pop into my head and it brings back some memories of me with you two wonderful boys. For example Austin you came up to stay a week with me in Springdale and I took you to work with me that week and for entertainment we took the remote control monster trucks to work. Also you made this big ball out of tape and stretch film and were playing around with it in the warehouse and you threw it up onto the rafters and it is still there to this date. Dillon, the lion king movie just came out on DVD and the thing that pops into my head about you is that you liked pumba, I believe he was the hog and he would always say I eat worms. But when you would say it, you would say I eat womes. It was so cute and funny to here you say that. You know I feel really bad about what has happened between us as father and sons. But at this point there is nothing I can do about it. I have beat myself up over the fact that I did not have the money to pay for the child support at the time your mother was asking for it. But trust me Austin & Dillon if I could pay now I would. But I would bet that if I were to offer, your mother would say that she is making it just fine and she doesnt need my money. I wish it was just a money issue but its not its a lot more than that to her. Im going to close for now so I will write again soon. If either of you get to read these letters please call or write.

Love always, your dad

Robert Brignac xoxoxoxoxo

Hello Austin & Dillon,

 How are you doing? Me Im doing okay. Well Im sure you two boys have been waiting for this day for awhile. Halloween that is. I bet you cant wait to go out and start trick or treating and get yourselves a lot of candy. Sarah and I are sitting at home giving candy to all of the little ghost and goblins like you. You two boys be very careful out there. I wish I could see how you are dressed up this year. Once again I want you to know how much I miss you and I love you very much. It is hard for me to write these letters knowing that I will not be getting any response, but some day it will be worth it. I just wanted to write you a small letter to let you know I was thinking about you on this 2003 Halloween day. Good bye for now and remember I love you both very much.

Love always, your dad

Robert Brignac

WRITTEN & PUT ON THE INTERNET December 9, 2003

WRITTEN & PUT ON THE INTERNET December 25, 2003

Dear Austin & Dillon,

Merry Christmas!!!!!

I hope that you two boys are having a wonderful day and that you get all the gifts you were wanting. I just want you to know that you are in my thoughts today and everyday. Im sure you would like to have had some snow today but maybe next year it will snow on Christmas. Sarah and I are doing great, but as I always say, it could only be better with you two here with us. As the days pass and turn into months and then into years I can only imagine how you two boys are growing up and what you look like. Im sure you are fine handsome young men. I know in my heart that someday we will get to be together again as a father and sons trio. As Ive said before if you are able to come to this web site please dont be afraid to call or write or even e-mail me, I would love to here from you both. Im going to close for now but I will write again soon.

Have a merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!!

Love always, your dad

Robert Brignac xoxoxoxoxo   

Dear Austin & Dillon,

Hello, how have you two boys been doing? Sarah and I have been doing well. I hope that you had a wonderful Christmas. As always I think about you two everyday. Not to long ago I was asked to take my web site off of the internet, thats not going to happen because there will be a day when you to boys will get to read this site and realize that I do love you and that your mother has made a big mistake. Im not sure what kind of music you listen to but Sarah and I will be going to see Kid Rock next month, we cant wait. I havent heard your voices in so long I probably wouldnt even recognize them. Some times its hard to write these letters when I know Im not going to get an answer, but I think it will pay off some day soon. If you two boys ever need anything just please let me know. There are a lot worst people out in the world and Im not one of them, I made a poor decision and now I have to live with it for the time being. But always remember it had nothing to do with the love I have for you. One day you will be able to do the research and see that I was pushed into a corner and only had one choice. I will close for now but always remember that I LOVE YOU BOTH and I am your real dad. =)

Love always, your dad

Robert Brignac

Dear Austin & Dillon,

Hello, how are you doing? Sarah and I are doing well. I have thought a lot about some of the things you boys need to know about me and your mother. I really wanted to wait to tell you two boys this in person someday, but I think it would be best that you know sooner than later. You may not quite understand everything right now but someday you will. I want you to know that I dont want to keep anything from you and everything I write on this web site is true. So lets start with mine and your mothers relationship.

At first it was like any normal marriage, everything seemed to be working just fine and then some little things started to happen between your mother and me. At this point she was not happy and she wanted a divorce in which I did not, but even after me telling her if she continued to go through with the divorce it would not ever be the same she did it any way. During the divorce we conceived you Dillon and then decided to remarry. After the divorce I was really hurt and very disappointed and did not put much effort in to our second marriage for quite some time. During this time that I was not happy I done things that I should not have and that Im not proud of. I would go out and get drunk and stay out late and that eventually turned into me cheating on your mother. After this going on for a couple of years I realized what I was doing and decided to turn my life around and start living for the Lord. In doing that I knew I had to tell your mother the truth about what I had done before I could be free of all my mistakes and sins. So when I told her the truth, I said I dont blame you if you want to leave me but she chooses to forgive me and we would move on. And that we did, I quite drinking for over a year and a half and was attending church on a regular basis and put all of the people that I was running around with to the way side. I turned my life around 180 degrees and to only find out that it was not enough. That is how I continued to live my life up to the point to where you mother wanted a second divorce. I cant take back the things that I done in the past. Im not a druggy, an alcoholic Im not a child molester Im a father who cares and that has made a few mistakes in his life. But none of these mistakes should have kept him and his sons from knowing each other.

Im truly sorry for what you have had to go through.

Love always, your dad

Robert Brignac   

Hello Austin & Dillon, how are you doing? I just wanted to write you a few lines to wish you a happy valentines day. I hope and pray that everything is going good for you two boys. I think about you all the time and wish that I could be with you. I cant stress enough of how wrong this has been towards you two and me. Some day you will see that this was all because I did not have enough money to give your mother so she chooses to keep us apart. Before we were even divorced I would try to call and talk to you but she would limit the nights I could call on and sometimes it would be on a night I had to work so it made it look like I did not ever call. What has this world come to, I know that your mother will tell you that she was or that she is only looking out for your best interest and that is why we cant be together. Thats so far from the truth because we should be able to see each other. How many times do I have to say I made a mistake and not by signing my rights over but by allowing your mother to push me in this corner, I had know choice at the time but to do that and she knew exactly what she was doing. I sent her a copy of my income and she knew that I could not pay what she was asking for so thats why we do not get to be together. Just hang in there guys there will be a day for us to be together again. I LOVE YOU BOTHWITH ALL MY HEART.

Love Always, your dad

Robert Brignac

Hello Austin & Dillon, how are you doing? I hope you are doing well. Sarah and I are doing ok. It has been over a year and a half since I have got to talk to you and hear your voices. Austin Im sure that I would probably not even recognize you if you were to call me, your voice has probably changed quite a bit. And for you Dillon I can only remember you sweet little voice at 4 years old. I often sit and wonder if you boys ever think about me and if you would like to see me. I think about you all the time. I have beaten myself up mentally and emotionally over some of the things that I could have done different to still have you in my life. Your mother and I divorcing was the best thing that could ever happen to her and me, but it was the worst thing for you two and me as a father and son relationship. I know you probably wont fully understand all of this until you get quite a bit older but please dont ever forget about me. I will never stop thinking about you or stop loving you no matter what you decide to do in life. I have the latest pictures of us at the ice skating rink hanging on the wall in my living room so I can see yall ever day. When the time has come that you are reading this letter ask your mother if she has any pictures of us together. When we separated I did not know that we would end up getting divorced, so when I moved all of your stuff back to Nashville all of the memories of us was left with your mother. That would be videos and pictures. Im going to close for now so I will write again soon.

Love Always

Your dad

Robert Brignac

WRITTEN & PUT ON THE INTERNET March 29, 2004

Hello Austin & Dillon,

How are you two boys doing? I hope very well. Sarah and I are doing fine, but we both wish that we could see you or at least hear from you. You know boys that I dont think this is fare at all what your mother is doing by not letting me call you or write you letters. What more can I say than I made a poor decision and Im very sorry for that. Im sure that there may be a lot of fathers that dont want to see or be with there kids, but that is not the case with me. I want to see you and I can afford to pay the child support now, I could not back in 2001 when your mother demanded the maximum child support or for me to sign my rights over to her. As I explained before I needed time to get my life back in order. Out of ten years I never once laid a hand on you two boys or your mother, but Im treated as if Im some kind of monster. Ive admitted that I may have verbally abused your mother but it was not intentional, I did not realize what it was doing to her. But she knows very well what she is doing to me right now. I know you will be young men before to long and you will be able to make your on decisions and hopefully we will be able to be together again. I love you both and take care of each other.

Love always,

Your Dad

 Robert Brignac xoxoxoxoxo

Hello Robert Austin and Dillon Reid,

How are you doing? I hope and pray very well. Sarah and I are doing fine. I told you last month that Sarah and I was going on a cruise to Cozumel Mexico and I would post some pictures when we got back. So if you will look over on the family photo album page you will see the ones I put out there for you to see. Going on this cruise was a blast and it would have been a lot better with you two boys going a long. There were all kinds of neat stuff that we could have done together. The pictures of Sarah and me standing in front of the ocean were taking when we went on an echo jeep-snorkeling adventure in Cozumel. As you can see the water was beautiful there. The other picture of us together was at a cocktail party on the ship where we got to meet the captain of the ship. And then the one of the ship was the ship that we were on. On this cruise we met a lot of nice people and two of them will always have a special place in my memories. There names were Lora and Jessica. Lora was Jessicas mother who had brought her daughter on a cruise for her graduation gift for graduating high school. I and Sarah and Lora and Jessica all went on the jeep adventure together, it was us four in the jeep and we had a blast together cutting up in the jeep. As we say back here in Arkansas (Getter done!!!!!) in which we did, know one could keep up with us in the jeeps, we were to fast. But besides the time we spent together on the ship we also exchanged e-mail addresss and have stayed in touch ever since. And in doing that Lora had wrote me a letter that has really giving me hope towards us getting to be together again some day. Just hang in there guys the lord will take care of you. When we got back to New Orleans Sarah and I went down town to the French quarters because she had never been there. We walked around for awhile and also walked down to the famous Bourbon Street. But while we were doing this I started thinking and told Sarah that you know its really kind of sad that I was born here and this is where my father lives and I dont even know if he is still alive. Boys I dont want it to ever come to this between us I love you very much and I always will no matter what. Thats why I have made this web site so you will know that I have tried to stay in touch with you and so you will be able to find me. Im going to close for now so just remember that I love you very much and Ill write again soon.

Love always,

Your dad

Robert Brignac xoxoxoxo

Hello Austin & Dillon,

How are you two boys doing? Me Im doing fine. Once again another year and another fathers day have passed with out us getting to be together as father and sons. But that is okay because you two are the reason for me to even celebrate fathers day. We may not get to be with each other now but dont stop praying because I wont, we will be together again someday sooner than we might think. I wish I could explain the actions of the ones around us but I cant. The main thing for you boys to remember is that I love you and that is why I have this web site. It really saddens me when I think about how much you two have grown up and I have not got to be a part of that. And once again Im truly sorry I did not have the money at the time to pay the child support. I do have it now but that doesnt seem to matter once a person has made a mistake I guess they cant be forgiven. Its sad to think that we are kept from each other because of money. And if thats not it than tell me what it is. Because I can tell you that you having a step father is ok, but also having and getting to see your real father is ok. I can only imagine what you have been told for the reasons that Im not around, but hopefully once you get to read this web site you will know the truth. Im going to close for now so Ill write again soon. Take care of each other and remember I love you both.

Love always your dad,

Robert Brignac xoxoxoxoxo

WRITTEN AND PUT ON THE INTERNET July 9, 2004

Hello again Austin and Dillon,

Sometimes I don’t know what to really say other than I love you both very much. But there are always thoughts that come to mind. And one thing that often comes to mind is that what if you do know about this web site and you are not calling me or writing me back. What would be the reason for that? I would only think that you are being told that you now have a new life with tour new step father and contacting me would only slow up the healing process. But that is so untrue, you two boys lived with me for four and nine years of your life’s and I never once gave you a reason to stop loving me or a reason not to want to see me again in your life. You have got to think about this if all you are hearing is things from your mother and not me then a coarse you’re going to shut me out of your life’s, and that is what your mother is wanting. I can promise you if she would allow me to call or write on a regular basis then you would want to see me and be with me and that is what bothers her. She can tell you all she wants to now and it will make it hard on us later in life to get to know each other again but I’m willing to wait and I will continue to write these letters until the day comes when your old enough to make your own decisions and think about the consequences that are to come there after. And when that day comes if you want to tell me face to face and in person that you don’t love me and you don’t want nothing to do with me because of a mistake that I have made in life than I will except that and go on with my life. But until then there will be no closure because I truly believe that you are being trained to think what someone else wants you to believe. I have letters from your mother saying that this is what parents do, protect there kids. Yes I agree we are suppose to protect are kids from harm and danger but not from the ones who love us. As I said before I can only pray that the lord softens those hearts that are doing wrong.

Love always,

Your dad

Robert Brignac xoxoxoxoxo

Dear Dillon,

I lust wanted to write you a small letter to wish you a very happy birthday and to let you know I am thinking about you. I hope that all your wishes come true and you get all the gifts you were wanting. I really would have liked to have sent you a card and a gift but the last time I sent you one on your birthday your mother sent it back to me with out giving it to you and I’m very sorry for that. One thing I would always want you to remember on your birthdays, in despite of what ever anyone else tells you is that me Robert Brignac is half the reason you are having a birthday. It took two people to create you and I’m one of those two. I love you very much and I miss you more and more every day as time goes on. You would think it would get easier not to think about you as much now that I don’t get to see you or talk to you, but it does not. I will always think about you because you are my son and even when Sarah and I have a child you will still be very special to me because you are my son. HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

Love always,

Your dad

Robert Brignac xoxoxoxoxo

Dear Austin,

Here it is once again your birthday is already back, but in just one short year you will be a teenager and I’ll bet you cant wait for that. But until then you’re a wonderful twelve years old. I want to wish you a very happy birthday and I’m very sorry that I can’t tell you in person or send you a gift. But you can always be assured that you’re in my thoughts and my prayers. I love you very much. Have a great day and I hope all your wishes come true. Happy Happy Birthday.

Love always,

Your Dad

Robert Brignac xoxoxoxoxoxo

Dear Austin and Dillon,

Hello again and how have you two been doing? Sarah and I are doing fine but could always be doing better if we could see you two. I received a picture of you two boys the other day from a friend of mine and it was the first time I have got to see either of you in over two years. And boy how much you have changed especially you Dillon you have sprouted up just like a weed and you are starting to look more and more like me each day. As for you Austin you have grown quite a bit as well and you have always looked like your good looking dad. I will put the picture of you out on the web site as soon as possible; it is a very good picture of you two. I wrote your mother a letter the other day to express my feelings on how she is handling this situation between you and me. I just wanted to let her know that I do think about you boys all the time and that I miss you and I wish that I could be in your lives. I think it is very wrong that I can’t talk to you or even write you letters. I know if I wasn’t being kept from talking to you that you would want to see me and you would still love me just as you always did. As always just remember that we will get to see each other again.

Love always,

You Dad

Robert Brignac xoxoxoxoxo  

Dear Austin and Dillon,

Hello again and how have you been doing? Sarah and I are doing fine. Well it’s getting close to Halloween and I’m sure you both are getting excited. I was sitting here at my desk today thinking about you two and decided to write you a few lines. Sometimes it is really hard for me to write these letters because I don’t really know what to say other than I love you both very much. I know maw-maw is going to ask your mother to take you to see her and I hope that you do get to go, she hasn’t seen you in a very long time and she misses you very much. This would not have been so easy for your mother to pull off if I had family that was living there in Nashville at the time of our divorce but its water under the bridge and her day will come. If I were to die or get killed today I would probably go to hell because of all the hate I have towards certain people and I know that only the lord can clear my mind and thoughts of this but it’s easier said than done. I have paid for this web site to be out here for another nine years, by that time Austin you will be 21 years of age and you Dillon will be 16 years of age and if we haven’t got back together to see each other, then we probably never will. But I’m only hoping that you will read these letters and understand that this is not what I wanted out of life. I did not want to be away from my two boys that I help bring into this world. If either of you ever need anything and I mean anything please don’t hesitate to ask me.

Love always,

Your Dad Robert Brignac xoxoxoxoxo   

Hello Austin and Dillon,

Happy thanks giving! How are you two doing? I don’t really have very much to say other than I do love you very much. I guess the more and more time that passes I some times think about that I will never get those memories back of you growing up. So I will say that your mother has really out done her self on this one and I will go to my grave hating her for what she has done. If she thinks she has done no wrong then she is no different then any of the other white trash on this earth. At this point it really doesn’t matter if I say anything good or bad about her because she has already kept you two from me this long and will continue to do so. And once again maw-maw wrote her asking her to bring you two to visit her and she has ignored her again. As I’ve always said and she is proving it now more than ever she is the B@#$! I always said she was. You may not like what I wrote in this letter but the truth does hurt.

Love always,

Your real dad

Robert Brignac xoxoxoxoxo

Merry Christmas Austin and Dillon.

I love you.

Your dad,

Robert Brignac xoxoxoxoxoxox

Hello Austin and Dillon, how have you two been doing? I know it’s been a couple of months since I have written you a letter but I have not forgotten about you. It sometimes makes it easier if I don’t think about all of what has happened. But any way just wanted to let you know that I love you both very much. As always I hope and pray that you will someday get this web site and read these letters and realize what has truly happened. It really saddens me that anyone in your mothers and step fathers family could just sit back and allow this to go on. Because you can bet if the role was reversed and they were not getting to see their grandchildren as you great grandmother (maw-maw) is not getting to see you then they would see how ridiculous this is. Its time that your mother grow up and cut the crap because I know that maw-maw has wrote you boys several letters and even left her phone number for you to call her but for some reason your mother always comes up with some kind of excuse for why you haven’t returned her letters. It’s not really so much about me anymore boys it’s really sad that your great grandmother cant even see you. Just remember that I will always love you and you will always have a place to stay and you will always have a real father which is me that loves you very much. Even though I haven’t been there financially or through moral support.

Love always,

Your dad Robert Brignac

Hello Austin and Dillon,

How have you both been doing? Sarah and I are doing great. I just wanted to write you a few lines to let you know that I love you and everything is going great. Sarah and I bought a new boat, and I wish you two could come up and go out to the lake with us. I will put some pictures out here on the site before to long so you can see what the boat looks like. I hope everything is going good for you. As always if you ever need me or anything you know where to find me.

Love always,

Your Dad Robert Brignac

Hello Austin & Dillon, I just wanted to write and tell you both that I love you very much and also to wish you Dillon a very special happy 8^th birthday…

Love always, your dad Robert Brignac

Hello Austin & Dillon,

I wanted to write you a small note just to let you know that I still think about you both and that I love you very much. But also to wish you Austin a very happy happy 13^th birthday. Wow you’re a teenager now. I’m very proud of you and I hope to see you again someday soon!!!

Love Always, your dad Robert Brignac