If and when my two boy's ever get access to this site I want them to be able to read the letters that I have mailed to them but was sent back because their mother did not give the letters to them instead she sent them back to me. I'm not trying to take anything from her, I hope she is happy but Austin & Dillon are still my two boy's and I want them to know that I do care about them and I did not sign my rights over because I didnt love them.

Often I sit and think about the things I wish I could do to get in touch with my boys. I have tried talking to different attorneys and they all seem to have different opinions. I once talked with one near where my boys live, like twenty miles away in a town where everyone knows each other. The attorney asks me who was trying to adopt my two sons and I gave her the name and after me giving her the name she got really rude. She said Mr. Brignac you know that criminals commit crimes and they have to pay for what they have done, just like you signing your rights over, now you have to pay for what you have done. So with that being said the reason we put a lot of criminals behind bars is so they can be rehabilitated and get a second chance. But I guess if youre a father that was really vulnerable and made a mistake in signing his rights over you dont deserve a second chance. I often sit and wonder why a mother would want to keep hers sons from staying in touch with there biological father. Yes I said that at the time I could not afford to pay the child support but things have changed and within a year and a half of all this coming to a head. But like I have also said before, time was one thing there mother did not want to give me, so I guess I am considered a dead beat dad now. That is so far from the truth because if I didnt love Austin and Dillon I would not be taking the time to try and stay in touch with them. What is a father to do? He is threatened if he continues to try and write his boys letters and send them birthday, Christmas and Halloween cards. So what does he do, sit back and act like his two boys dont exist. Even if it is when my boys turn twenty one that they want to come and see me that will be okay because at that time I will be able to explain my side of the story. But God only knows how much I want to see and talk to them before then.      

Yea here I am with the big OU hat on. Even though I live in AR. Im still a Sooner at heart. This is a picture my big, little sister took of me while she was kind enough to be giving me some basic computer knowledge. With out her getting me started in this web site I would not have made it this far. So I would like to give special thanks to her because I know that she loves Austin & Dillon and she would like to see them with there father again. Thank you TMB.

I will have to admit that my two sons losing there birth name (Brignac) does hurt me to think about it at times. They are so young and have know idea what is really going on, you can tell a small child anything and make them believe it. Not even being married a year there mother changed there last names and Im sure its just to put me that much further out of there lives because she may have asked them if they wanted it but it doesnt mean they knew what was really going on. Trust me I had a step father and I never changed my last name and I have no regrets to this day, even with the fact that I have only seen my biological father once. God made it possible for me to be in this world  and that was the name I was gave and Ill keep it until I go to my grave.

I went down to visit my grandmother (Austin & Dillons) great grandmother a couple of weeks ago. She will be 83 on January 3^rd 2004 and I can assure you she has never done any harm to anyone and has lived her life for the lord to the fullest. But what amazes me is that she can write the two boys a letter or send them a birthday card and some money and never here back from them. I think it is very sorry that there mother would keep my side of the family from staying in touch with Austin and Dillon. This hurts her because they are her great grand children and she loves them very much. I often sit and think that if Kristi didnt want the child support in the beginning or if it wasnt about the money then why didnt she take what I told her I could pay at the time and let me continue to be with my boys.  I cant tell you enough of how low I was in life and I wasnt thinking right. I needed time.  

On December 2^nd 2003 at 8:30 P.M. I received a phone call from my ex-wifes husband and this is a little of what he had to say.

He started out by saying that Kristi and he gave me a choice with my two boys and that I choose the path that I wanted... Well first off it was not much of a choice when youre forced to sign your kids over because you dont have the money to pay maximum child support. And that is exactly what happened. I did not choose that path because I didnt want to see or be with my two boys anymore. I love them very much to this day and there is nothing that my ex or her husband can do about that. What more can I say than I made a very poor decision because of the state of mind I was in. You can bet your @#% that she will never make the mistake of forgiving me for that and doing what any decent mother would do and let them know there biological father. But that is all right because she will have to deal with someone far higher than her. And then he said they were tired of me going behind there back and trying to give the boys letters and also said that they did not approve of my web site and that I better shut it down. Well if I did go behind there back to stay in touch with my two sons it would be really sad. But if you will remember she is the one not letting my letters get through to them. As far as the web site goes this is my way of expression my love for Austin & Dillon and know one has forced anyone to come to my site if you dont want to come and read my site than dont come. He said he had talked to two prosecuting attorneys and they said it was illegal. Ha Ha I dont think so. I tell you if they want to come after me for my web site that is dedicated to my two sons than let them try. Im sure with all the xxx sites this one will be there first choice. What ya think? You would think a couple that has been married two years would have better things to do than try and get rid of my web site the one that may let my two boys know the truth and that I love them very much. What more does someone need? I dont even live close to them and I never see them or call and at her request I quit sending letters. Knowing that I made the biggest mistake in my life by signing my rights over, this is my way of letting my two sons know I made a mistake and I do love them. Peace and Love.

These next two pictures that you are about to look at do have a little story. The one on the left of the double heart & butterfly was the first tattoo I had ever got. I was twenty years old and living in Brandy Wine Maryland. It was just the double heart and butterfly and read Robert loves and the other side was blank. So after getting married I put Kristis name in the other side. Then after the boys were born I added there names and birthdates.

The one on the right of the gargoyle is a cover up, in which I think the artist did a very good job. If youre wondering why I choose a gargoyle there are a couple of reasons. First being that a gargoyle can be represented as a guardian, in which this case he is. He is guarding over Austin and Dillon. Second, it is very hard to do a cover up on a tattoo and this worked perfect. What can I say Out with the Old in with the New.