On March 31, 2001 Kristi, Austin, Dillon and I moved to Rogers AR so I could transfer with my job, Barnes Paper Co. We came up and got a house where I would live until Austin our oldest boy completed the school year in Nashville which would be in May. During this time we (the boys & I) got to visit two or three times. After the school year ended in May and on the weekend the family was suppose to be moving to Rogers I called to see wear they were on the road coming to Rogers. And for the first time I was told by Kristi that they were not moving to Rogers. At first I was upset and a little angry, then I started asking questions and she said it would be best if we separated because over the last couple of months she had time by herself and time to think and she was happier without me. So over the next few months we would visit but nothing got any better despite the fact that I was begging her to stay together as a family. During this time I was very upset that we were separated, I had moved to a new city where I had no friends or family. I just kept thinking how much easier it was for her because she was still in Nashville with all of her friends and family wear she grew up. So to give the final blow she filed for divorce in august 2001. During a lot of this time I did not know if I was coming or going, so before the divorce was final we had agreed on a couple of things that was not in our divorce decree. One being child support and the other was visitation. It did not take long to see that our verbal agreements were not going to hold up. The divorce was final in September 2001. By this time I was honestly beside myself and did not know how to handle the situation. When I would try to contact the boys Kristi would always say that it had to be at my convenience and that was not true, she had no idea what I was going through. It was very hard for me to live by myself without my family. It was hard financially, mentally and physically for me. It had taken a big toile on my life. So to add a little salt to the wound just three weeks after the divorce was final one night I called down to talk to the boys and a guy answered the phone, so I ask if Kristi was there and he said no she went to town. So then I ask if Austin and Dillon were there and he said yes but they were in the bath tub, so I said I would call back later. It seemed awful funny that just three weeks after our divorce was final that Kristi had left our two boys home alone in the bath tub with some guy that she had supposedly just met. I have to admit that did hurt just a little. At this point I started drinking pretty heavily and was headed for ground zero. So with the help of my doctor I hired a psychologist and started seeing her once a week. After seeing her for the first couple of times she put me on anti-depressants which Im still on to this date. She said that you have to tame one lion at a time and the first being myself. She said that when you are injured really bad and you go to the emergency room the first thing they do is stop the bleeding and that is what we are going to do. I knew I had to get my life straight and in working order before I could take on the responsibility of being a good father to my two boys Austin and Dillon. During this time things only got worse for me. Kristi got remarried just three short months after our divorce. At this point when I would try to call the boys and talk to them I was not allowed to if it was not on a certain night or at a certain time. So then the unbelievable came next, she had me served with papers wanting either maximum child support or for me to sign my rights over so the boys could be adopted. And at this point Kristi knew I could not pay the maximum child support, so I wrote her a letter a showed her how much money I made and what it took for me to live off of and that I could only pay $200.00 dollars a month. And her reply was either you pay maximum child support and be in there lifes or you sign your rights over and not be in there lifes, its your choice. So at this point I was so confused and did not have the money to hire a attorney and with her attorney calling me saying that I may as well sign the papers because I couldnt afford to pay her attorney fees plus court cost and that the judge will not care if I dont have enough money to live off of as long as the child support was paid. So I did it, I made the biggest mistake in my life I signed my parental rights over to Kristi. But not only was she getting me to lose my rights but also getting consent for adoption. I think what really made it worst was the fact that her new husband was ten years old when my first boy was born and he was wanting to adopt my two boys after being married only a few months. I will never be able to explain in words how bad this hurt. My two boys that I help bring into this world and to hopefully carry on the Brignac name was gone with ease. I know people will have there own opinions but until you ever have to experience this situation or one like it and all are different please dont think of me as a bad father for what Ive done I only needed time to heal and that was time Kristi did not want to give me. I can only hope and pray that my two sons will forgive me for the decision  that I made, because I love them very much and want to be a part of there life, and maybe with some luck I will be again. Since all of this has been final I have not got to talk to my boys in about a year and a half. Kristi had once said and wrote in a letter that if the boys wanted to talk to me or ask about me that she would let them. I have written the boys letters and sent them birthday cards with money in them only to be returned to me by Kristi. The last time I sent them a letter by mail Kristi sent it back and had enclosed a letter saying that if I did not quit writing them letters she was going to take legal action against me. Why would Austin and Dillon want to ask about me or talk to me if they think I dont exist? It is easy for a child to be coached into believing anything. That is the main reason behind this web site; if my letters can not get through to them by mail then Im sure someday they will get access to the internet and see that I have tried to stay in touch to let them know that I do love and miss them. Its only a matter of time before my sons will contact me and when they do I will have copies of everything for them to view. Kristi can keep me out of there lifes until there eighteen, but only until then. She is trying to control the fate of two boys that were brought into this world by her and me. She is also trying to pass judgment on me for how I was and not how Im living my life now. She is trying to judge me for the mistakes I have made in the past in spite of all the changes I have made to improve my life now. I know first hand what it is like to grow up without your biological father in your life.